Grandma had not been herself for quite some time but today I'm choosing to reflect on the ways that I will remember her. She was fiercely loyal to her family......she was always my #1 cheerleader whether I was playing in a piano competition or competing for fair queen......whatever the event, she was always very supportive and frankly thought I should win every time (which I didn't.......1st runner up at the fair). She stayed actively involved in my life for as long as she was able. I spent a lot of time at her house over the years and the memories are fond. Mom, Dad and I would frequently meet Grandma and Grandpa halfway from Vincennes in Bloomfield or Bloomington and I would go back to Columbus with my grandparents.
Grandma had the most amazing dress-up clothes. She had saved dresses from 40 or 50 years ago and would let me play with them. Oh my. And her shoes......boy did she have shoes. It was very sad to me when my feet outgrew Grandma's shoes (by a country mile......I wear a 9 and she topped out at a 6 1/2!!). And then there was the jewelry. Grandma had such beautiful things and she wanted to share them with me and let me dress up like a grown up and be a little lady.
I remember fondly cooking several Greek dishes with Grandma. A special tradition was the kotopita (chicken pie) or tyropita (cheese pie) that we would make at New Year's. The tradition was to hide a coin somewhere in the pie and whoever finds the coin in their piece will be lucky in the coming year. Grandma learned to cook wonderful Greek food as an act of love for her Greek husband. We have all reaped the benefits of this ethnic fare!
Some of my college friends will remember Grandma's letters that she used to send. She would decorate the envelopes with stickers and it always brought a chuckle beacuse after all, I was an adult in college receiving stickers from my grandma. It's interesting how time can change one's perspective......now as a Mom who understands how busy life can be, I see Grandma's letters and stickers as a sacrifice of time and a labor of love. Just the fact that she wanted to stay involved in my life is a testament to her love of family. She was an encourager and a friend to me.
I feel blessed beyond words to have experienced such a close relationship with my grandma. I know of many people who have never known this kind of closeness with a grandparent. It is so difficult for me to say good-bye and to let go of this defining relationship in my life. I have never known life without my grandma in it.......I suddenly feel older, less child-like. I am so thankful that she was able to spend time with Nicholas, Ella and Mae. I am saddened to realize that they probably won't remember her. They always call her "Yia Yia" which is Greek for "Grandma". Maybe Nicholas is old enough to remember Yia Yia as he gets older. And we will always be able to share stories and pictures with our children to keep her memory alive.
I am really grieving today and I realize that there is blessing in the grieving as well. To me, the grieving speaks of the love I have for my grandma and the closeness of our family. Praise God that I will be able to see my grandma again one day in eternity. Until that day comes, I will hold these dear memories close to my heart.
I love you, Grandma.